Confounded Accusations

I'm having conflict with this girlfriend of mine. Not Sara. Anyway when we were in high school i was in love with her. It was one of those high school things but it's bigger i suppose that she's the love of my life. It's like that. We never were involved that way and eventually we lost contact. Few, maybe like one year ago we were reunited by a chance meeting and have started to socialize a bit. A great bit. Thing is that i resent her. Really resent her. Resent her not being into me. Just resent everything about her really. Her life, kids, husband, house, minivan, fucking everthing. I just do man. I can't help it. I wonder though if this means that we can't really hang like close friends. I'm hostile sometimes where she's concerned. It's not like i think she's got it better then me or anything. I think i kind of feel like i think that she should have just walked on by that time that we met eachother again. I think that's what I was fixing to do. I prolly knew it was for the best. In my head i was kind of obsessed with her. I started working on this graphic novel about the whole deal. It was looking good too when I dropped the project. It was a drag dredging those memories man. A real drag. I don't know man. I sound gay here. Sorry. We're in a bit of a fight at the present time. Not the siege of Stalingrad or anything just a brief moment of hostility. She blew me, and Zelly off to go and have a "play date" that's what she calls em' I just say hanging out. That's another thing I resent having to go to "play dates" when i just want our kids to hang out. Oh, she blew us off to go and play with some family named THE JOLLYS. Blew the Castros off for THE JOLLYS. Heavens.......


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