Confounded Accusations

Lately I've been going through a great deal of personal turmoil. That's life, turmoil, not always but sometimes. Well,I've dealt and in a lot of ways I can see the sun. I can see that things are going to be better, I may not feel demented and godlike but I'm happy, sort of, sort of not. That's a bite and if you're reading this and part of me hopes you are I'm sorry that things turned out like they did and really and this is honest to god, I hope that you find happiness somewhere. You're a good person. I believe that and someday you'll find yourself and then you're golden. Just take care of yourself and try and realize that all actions have consequences. Someday I hope that we can talk and that things will be decent, I doubt it but still, I hope that things turn out well for you. The fact of the matter is that we're bad for each other but still that doesn't mean I don't care and that doesn't mean that I don't believe that you don't care either. I just wish, shit I wish lots of things but right now I hope that you're ok and that you don't do any more things to hurt yourself and that someday you find something and some place that makes you whole. I hope that the future is better then the past and that you keep the things close to you and someday you can look back at all of this with an impartial eye and know that this was all destined to end painfully and that you know that there will always be a place in my heart marked with your name. Take my peace of mind and sew my name across your heart. You aren't a homewrecker and i'm not crazy it's just like you said, oil and water and it's not like that's distillers song cause people with similar disorders can't be in love. Two weak people barely equal one healthy one. I've enjoyed our time together and fuck, i'm sorry that you cry and i'm sorry for all that's been said. I can't take it back, it's true, all of it but nonetheless life is hard and i'm drunk but still I wish I could go backwards and take some of it back and heal you so that you don't carry more pain in your little trunk.


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